Joe's lounge

I’m almost forget I’ve ever owned this blog and always will, seriously, the day since I started my job career, English seems no longer that important to me, though I need to read mails contracts whatever materials that related to my job funtioning, what i’ve learned is just enough. i have to say, that’s the main reason why i didn’t write my blog for a month and i don’t want to pick up my vocabulary book anymore. Suddenly i realized that this is the begining of the end, the end of my growing, the end of my knowlodge, the end of my life.

People just can’t simply satisfied with the currently condition, for me, I’m the person who don’t willing to change, everything, if I have my girl, I bet I won’t change her easily, and that’s me. After two months of working (actually is training), I experienced what i believe the hardest time to live with people, so what? I’m nobody, so there won’t be some so called “mercy”. My defectiveness, my own problem, no one can solve it unless i’m willing to, and that’s me too.

I don’t know why my supervisor leave me in this team, because I got not so many things to do and the relationships with others also not that satisfied, I can get my job done, only if I have something to do. I thought about requesting, requsting to transfer to another team, another so called “always busy” team, so that i don’t have to care about relations something like that, all i have to do is to get my job done and that is it, when it’s time to off to go, i will leave on time, it’s better if i have to OT, because i can get the extra money. But all these is just what i’m thinking, that doesn’t means i have to implement it. Why not quit after the several days remaining training period if i don’t get what i want or what i need, and that would be a more moral alternative for me. Life is a struggle, just like the lyrics of this song, no matter what happened, no matter how things change, just be myself.

By the way, i wrote all these during my mid-day break at the company, hoping you can find no mistakes during your reading, because i didn’t use English for a long time…