Joe's lounge

Don’t have much to say about life, i don’t know since when, but it actually nothing particular shows up for a long time, everyday is just as normal as the still water.

Last time i wanna write is the very last day of 2008, you know, to sum up what had happened or what i’ve done, what i’ve accomplished in 2008, but i didn’t write that post. 2008 means a lot to me: i graduated from college; the very first job in my life; those sleepless nights worried about where to go, what to do, i can still remember those songs i listened during the three months of job searching, and i still have feelings while listening to these songs, feeling of sad, feeling of hopeless.

Shouldn’t these all be remembered? Coz, as the process of a man’s  life, what he thought, how he acted would have profound effect on his future, and they also serves as the evidence of a man’s growing: Nothing unless we do something.

Don’t know how our company’s plan for lunar new year, probably i would have only three days holiday, a day for returning home, a day for coming back, only one day staying at home. And this would be a The First too, the first time in my life only have three days holiday for lunar new year. Because of this, some promises would sold down the river, like student reunion, party, relative visiting, and i remember i have a big box filled with books, the day i left school, i mailed it to one of my friends in my county, and still have no chance to get it back for almost 6 months.

Sorry then, see what i can do.

There’s a draft i wrote few months ago which i had no intention to publish was published. Why? coz when i look back to those words, i have a profound feeling about lives of those days and call up my memories about everything at work. So if i don’t publish it, maybe i’ll feeling sorry about that years later.

Alright, let me summarize both life and work for the past few months. First is life, as arranged, i took part in the PETS4 a month ago, and according to the previous experience(that’s the benefit of keeping diaries), result will come out in early Nov., or maybe late Oct., hope i get pass this time:) Talking about English, i started the morning read few weeks ago, the book is called How to Stoping Worrying And Start Living by Dale Carnegie, a book i brought from Dangdang few months ago, along with another book also written by Dale Carnegie: How to Win Friends And Influence People, and it will be my next target to take it down. The way i’m doing morning read is first download the audio book from the Internet, copy into my mp3 player, following the speaker and read my book in hand. Benefits i learned from this way of praticing, which i’ve never found out before, is that it can pratice only the listening, reading, but also oral skills. Besides, people like me can learn some worry solving techniques from this book too, i think that’s what others say: kill two birds with one stone.

Next think i wanna talk is work, obviously time can change anything, and now i can handle some jobs directly by myself, tough though, but as i said, time can change anything, so let’s see. And i wanna thanks my colleagues, their tolerance and willingness to help makes me feel a lot better. Our team, total 22 of us had a lunch last week, most of us had a great time and had a great fun, including me… There’re photos, but there’re too large to send out by mail to my inbox, maybe i’d show you some other time.

A month again, and i’m here to continue my “journal”, this time i didn’t write it at office but at dorm, the reason is simple: I’m busy while at office. You might curious how’s that possible, me? busy? A month ago, it is not possible, as i have told you guys all my diary activities at office, and most of the time i was just sitting and doing nothing, that’s why i can wrote my words during working hours. Ever since i was transferred to another team, everything has changed: colleague, job responsibility, daily work routing. For me, this is just another month of training. Though that’s not easy, but i feel a little bit excited coz i don’t have to pretend  doing something (actually nothing) and feeling awful.

—————————————-above wrote a month ago

22th Aug, two months after transferred, life has not been easy…

IT SEEMS THAT I SHOULD GO TO SLEEP BEFORE 10PM, BECAUSE I JUST FEEL SO TIRED SITTING HERE. PASSIONLESSNESS PROBABLY IS THE MAIN REASON WHY I FEEL TIRED, “LIVE FREE OR DIE HARD”, I CHOOSE LIVE FREE IF I CAN. “I CAN” MEANS I DON’T HAVE TO WORRY ABOUT PLACE TO LIVE, FOODS TO EAT AND CLOTHES TO WEAR, THAT’S THE MOST BASIC ELEMENTS OF A “LIFE”, I WOULD APPRECIATE SOME ADDITIONAL “BONUSES” OF COUSE, BOOKS, CUBES, NO WOMEN, IT DOESN’T MATTER WHERE TO LIVE, EVEN IN A FORREST, I WILL BE AS GOOD AS THE RICHEST PERSON ON THE PLANET, OR EVEN BETTER.

BUT THE FACT IS THAT I WILL NEVER BE A GUY LIKE THAT, NON OF ANYONE WHO LIVES ON THIS PLANET. BECAUSE WE HAVE SO MUCH TO CARE ABOUT, FIRST AND THE MOST IMPORTANT OF COURSE IS YOUR FAMILY, YOUR FATHER, YOUR MOTHER, AND THE SO CALLED “RESONSIBILITY TO GET MARRY, THEN NEED TO HAVE A CHILD AND RAISE HE/SHE UP”, WHAT A TRADITIONAL THOUGHT! ANOTHER IS THE SO CALLED “SOCIATY RESPONSIBILITY”, AND THAT LIMITES EVERY WORDS YOU SAY, EVERY MOVES YOU MAKE, OTHERS LIKE “WORK FOR YOUR COUNTRY”, “FOR THE COUNTRY’S FLOURISHING”, ANYTHING! LIFE SHOULD BE FREE RIGHT?

ANYWAY, I CAN CHANGE NOTHING, IF YOU SAY SOMETHING, THAT SOMETHING MUST BE ME.

SEE, I’M WRITING ALL THESE CRAPS DURING MY WORKING HOURS AGAIN, I DON’T WANNA DO THAT HOWEVER, BUT WHATELSE I CAN DO?

FORGIVE ME FOR THE ALL CAPITAL-LETTERS WRITING STYLE, IF YOU FEEL NOT GOOD OF READING ALL THESE STUFF, JUST SKIP THAT.